| | "I looked all around. There wasn't any colors anywhere. Everything was black and white and gray. It was quiet as a graveyard. I stared wildy at the growing crowd, the police cars, wondering why it was all so silent. It didn't look quiet. It looked like TV with the sound off... I tried screaming and I still couldn't hear it. I was that alone. I was in a glass bubble and everyone else was outside it and I'd be alone like that for the rest of my life.
Then a pain sliced through my head and the colors were back. The noise was deafening and I was shaking because I was still alone."
To all those people who are too caught up with what's happening around them now... what will become of you? To all those people who only care about their reputation or how they look to others... what if everyone leaves you? To all those people who skip school to smoke... what the hell is wrong with you? Can't you see that you're the only one who can make your own future?
Stupid fuckers. You promise to work hard in school and you promise yourself to buy a nice car and to get a nice house and a family, but you just throw your whole fucking chance away. You promised yourself. You promised everyone. And if you screw up your chance now, you won't ever get another one. And to you I say these two words: "fuck you."
I thought you were for real when you said you would stop fucking around. But like before... I know all your words and everything that comes out of your mouth is just a bunch of bullshit. Everything to you is just games and you think your so great because the only thing important to you is reputation.
Well, a reputation for skipping school and promising yourself shit promises isn't a rep that you want. So give it up and look at your future. Right now it's shit.
These words are for you. One day you will wake up at the age of 18. You will receive a phone call from a girl you picked up a week ago. You don't remember her because you fuck around with 50 girls each week. She says she's pregnant. You throw up both because you are shocked and because of the hangover from last night. You end up running from the girl. You act like your tough and you don't care. But when you are by yourself and you think about it, it bugs the hell out of you. You don't think about it much because it's already happened to you before. Maybe the next time it happens you'll try to stay with her. But you know that it won't work. And that time, you get stuck with the kid. You're an 18 year old father. 'It's not that young.' you think. But you want to live up to the age of 80. That's not possible if you do drugs and smoke. And think about it then. You're stuck with a kid whose mother you barely know for the rest of your life.
Man, you just fucked up your life. Maybe you started this whole thing when you first ranaway from home. Or when you first shoplifted and got caught. Maybe you long to be that cool guy who's on the streets who carries a gun everywhere and your whole life goal is to be the "legend" on the streets. You wish to be respected and known as the smartest and best fighter ever. If you do, you have one fucked up desire.
My advice to you: please don't fuck up your life. Please don't turn your future to dust.
You know who you are. You know who I'm talking to.
Christine.
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| | Posted 8/27/2004 1:36 PM - 22 Views - 28 eProps - 17 comments
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